FJIN-010 - A tower recorded excessively by a mentally unstable fan. As the fan representative of Yokomiya Nanami, I filmed a documentary to convey her goodness, but I was shaken mentally many times during filming as I was swayed by 'Nanamin', and when we were finally alone, we were both shy and melted, completely devouring the mucous membranes.

It's been two years since she passed away. When I first heard the news of her death, my heart was filled with shock, sadness, and a sense of loss. Only God knows the truth, but after learning the approximate circumstances, I realized I hadn't understood Nanami Yokomiya at all. I couldn't understand her pain, suffering, and sadness, and I couldn't reach out to her to offer a single word of comfort. The first thing I felt while watching this work was that it wasn't the usual Nanami Yokomiya. There was no light in her eyes or on her face, and her smile was gone. But then she would suddenly smile, or light would return to her eyes. I think she was fighting invisible anxiety and loneliness. The way she firmly grasped the director's hand and looked back at him with pleading eyes… I was struck by her words when she smiled and said at the shop, "You should only say the word 'love' to someone you truly love!" and her response to the question, "Who is Nanami Yokomiya?" – "A second life." The message she left for her fans until the very end was full of kindness and consideration, just like Nanami, and it touched my heart. I absolutely don't want to lose any more actresses who are gems of the AV industry! As I thought that, I strongly believe that we must absolutely prevent actresses from leaving on their own like she did. To do that, the actresses, managers, and heads of the agency must have quarterly interviews to see if the actresses are struggling with any problems, discuss their future activities in detail, have counselors stationed at the agency so they can consult at any time, and create an environment where they can retire and return if they wish, with warm and thorough support. It's also important to have someone by their side who can say, "You are not alone," and listen to their concerns sincerely. We shouldn't forget her, but learn from her, and there must be things we need to change. Otherwise, she won't be at peace, and new victims will emerge. Nanami Yokomiya, you worked so hard and lived such a young and short life of 21 years. I will never forget the emotions, joy, and healing you gave me. I am truly happy to have met you. Thank you. Please rest peacefully and serenely.

Those who choose to leave this world rarely have much to say. According to Yokomiya Nanami's Wikipedia page, this work seems to be her last recorded date. Excluding omnibus appearances, it's essentially the final work of actress Yokomiya Nanami. However, it's unlikely that the staff, or even she herself, imagined this would be her last work during the planning and filming stages. As a documentary of someone leaving this world, the content feels too light, and you might be left with a strange feeling even when watching the scenes outside of the explicit ones. But conversely, that's what gives this work its realism. You can occasionally glimpse the fragility of someone skeptical about living. In the beginning, Yokomiya Nanami and cameraman Suzutake borrow a camera from a production company and buy supplies for filming at Don Quijote. It's a virtual date scene. Throughout, Yokomiya Nanami speaks in a higher pitch, and at Don Quijote, she starts picking out clothes unrelated to the shoot, or calls the packaging of a sex toy 'cute,' portraying a 'quirky' Yokomiya Nanami. However, she also shows rational sides, like calculating the taxi fare or being mindful of the shoot when choosing supplies. After the first scene, Yokomiya Nanami performs fellatio on Suzutake, with whom she held hands during the scene. After that, Yokomiya Nanami and Suzutake have a yakiniku dinner, and after the meal, Yokomiya Nanami invites Suzutake to a love hotel separate from the filming location, where they have another scene. Finally, Suzutake asks Yokomiya Nanami, "What is Yokomiya Nanami to you?" and after some hesitation, Yokomiya Nanami replies, "A second life." This suggests Yokomiya Nanami had a "first life" separate from Yokomiya Nanami, but that part isn't really shown in this work. Still, there are glimpses of that "first life," and that's what makes this work interesting. When Suzutake asks, "Did you always want to be an actress?" she replies, "Honestly, I thought nothing would change no matter what I did, so I started." When asked about her feelings about the fellatio, she replies to Suzutake, who says he "felt love," with a slight hesitation, "You shouldn't say the word 'love' to anyone but someone you truly love." I suspect that Yokomiya Nanami (the woman playing her) had never initiated anything with a man before, making this the first time she proactively invited Suzutake.

Yokomiya Nanami lived a life dedicated to selfless love. Having grown up lacking affection and with low self-esteem, she seemed to find her purpose by excessively depending on and devoting herself to others. You could really see that side of her in the more playful or 'trap' style videos, and it was really cute. However, that selfless love was also fully displayed in... well, the more intense stuff. She shone by completely accepting being dominated. But, having begun to question her way of life, she asks in this video: "What is love?" Her answer was being accepted for who she truly is. That was something she had given up on, but knowing it was directed by Suzutake, she decided to open her heart just a little. So, she asked the director, seeking true love: "Is it okay if I throw up in bed?" She was testing whether he was willing to accept all of her, including her dark side. Of course, the director, lacking a dark side himself and unprepared to accept everything about her, hesitated. Ultimately, she gave up. As a result, the final scene felt unfinished. Still, in this video, she reveals a glimpse of her inner thoughts. In the final part of the first scene, while having sex with the actor, she gripped the director's hand and stared intently into his eyes. That wasn't normal behavior. Wasn't she sending an SOS signal to the director? I think she was sending a message: "I'm groaning in the darkness right now. Please help me." But no one around her, including the director, noticed that message. The shy her didn't send any further signals. It's a really sad and frustrating feeling. I think she intended to reveal a little of her heart and then retire with this video. Quitting the physically and mentally demanding job of an AV actress would have been a good thing for her, but it's really regrettable that there was no one around to support her. This video has a lot of depth.

This is a documentary about Yokomiya Nanami and Suzutake, who loves Nanamin. It felt like I was seeing a Yokomiya Nanami who wasn't Yokomiya Nanami, but that Yokomiya Nanami who wasn't Yokomiya Nanami was also Yokomiya Nanami. As a Nanamin fanatic, that's how I felt. And their scene was more awkward and made me blush than any AV I've ever seen. It's like being shown your parents having sex, or being shown a friend's candid shot... It definitely wasn't a hit as an AV work, but I don't think this work can be categorized as such. A real day in Yokomiya Nanami's life was definitely there.