MMNA-014 - Yuri Confession: 'I'm Sorry, I Love You'

Loving each other but having to part ways because one has to enter a 'normal' marriage is a common trope for homosexuals, I suppose. Even knowing it's fiction, it felt strangely real and overlapped with my own past experiences, so I was completely drawn in. I cried so hard I wondered, 'Why am I crying this much at an AV?' and was left in a daze for a while after. The raw, emotional performances by Mukai and Eikawa, combined with director Masaki's skill in drawing that out, make this a brilliant work. Also... there's a scene where she throws a glass of water during an argument. Most people would do it with a backhand motion, but Mukai threw it with a full overhand swing. As expected of a former softball player!

*I'm sure there are pros and cons, but I quite like beginnings with a documentary feel, so my expectations were high from the beginning. It's cute that it feels like it's a bit of a joke, so I can forgive it (lol) Noa's clothes are cute, and Ai's is boyish and cool. Ai, who is a lesbian and likes straight guys, forcibly assaults Noa...and she won't even listen to her...The story progresses like this. Even during the interview, they were flirting with each other and it was cute. When the first encounter begins, both Noa and Ai open their eyes and kiss, which is cute and erotic. While kissing, Noa advances at Noa's pace, and when Ai attacks Noa's nipples and licks her toes, she makes a moaning sound, and the moaning sound itself is cute. I laughed a little when I saw the word "Negative" written on the T-shirt that Ai was wearing in the dinner scene. The second encounter begins with both men in uniform. At first, Noa starts off gently, but suddenly Noa spits on Ai and says, ``That's not it. Why are you kidding? This isn't what Ai did to me. Why are you lying?'' She gets angry, removes Ai's underwear, and says, ``You don't know what I was like back then,'' and makes her squirt with her fingers. Ai says ``I'm sorry, Noa'' and kisses her, and they resume their relationship while remembering those days. However, Noa-chan accuses Ai, saying, ``Do more. Ai did more back then. It wasn't like that. You did a lot of worse things to me. Now that we're together like this, you're holding back.'' You can see what I mean by forcibly attacking me in the first interview. Noa has to return to her parents' home and take over the family business, but she can't accept that...One night, they get into a big fight. On their last trip together, when Ai is looking back on the fun things they've had so far, Noa starts crying, and the distance between their hearts grows further... Their final relationship is ``I confess my love for you,'' ``I love you, but I can't be with you forever,'' ``I don't want you to forget, but I want you to forget,'' and ``I love you, but I want you to hate me.'' All of them were so sad and beautiful that they were tied together with tears.

The documentary-style parts felt a bit acted, but once the intimacy started, their expressions looked quite natural, which was nice. The initial lovey-dovey scenes were also very heartwarming. In the scene after they put on uniforms, the girl playing the 'straight' role suddenly starts a fight, and I was left wondering, 'Why?' The subsequent fight scene had a genuine, tense atmosphere, which was good, but the content of the argument was thin—I wish there had been more dialogue or setup. In the final night scene, both of them seemed completely possessed by their roles, and I was glued to the screen. Mukai-san's acting was especially good. 'I loved you so much that I can't forgive you.' 'I still love you so much that I want to hurt you.' 'I want to hate you, but it's sad how much I still love you.' I think the complex feelings unique to women were conveyed very well. It's truly heartbreaking and painful. While many other lesbian works feel like 'This is AV! It's for men!', I really love this director's lesbian works because the actresses seem to connect through their hearts, not just their bodies. They seem to be great at drawing out acting talent, too. I really hope this director continues to make 'emotional AV' works in the future.

It depends on what you're looking for in an AV, but if you're expecting exhibitionist play or S&M, you might find it lacking. I got so immersed that I actually teared up a little. I like how director Masaki's unique female perspective is utilized here.

*Their acting was so natural that it didn't feel strange to be told that they were a lesbian couple. Although the production feels a little clumsy in some places, this method of depicting the daily lives of homosexual women in a documentary style is a welcome direction for me, especially since there are so many unnatural and unrealistic lesbian works these days. As for the individual content, let's just say it's full of highlights. Please check it out with your own eyes. I don't think many people will be disappointed when they see this work.